arabelle-elizabeth

we bear them sons they use to crush us forgetting that to be a woman doesn't make us less than them, and perhaps that is why they fear us.

lashing out you'll burn anyone in your fire without realizing sometimes people are just trying to love you, to help you determined to keep them out, you don't realize maybe you should keep them in a heart wasn't made to be lonely.

Once secretly entwined To my surprise Our Lips now blacken with ink To scatter away in the desert dust The blood petals of our friendship. I let it draw the shape of an "A" May our black books - like rocks - immortalize our memory.

You stayed in the dark, waiting for a light so bright to blind you. But since your stay you forgot what light is. Not knowing you forgot, you smile.. and you go on just fine. Here is comfortable. Here is known. Here is home.

You never loved me Did you darling? I'm just a body to use When you get bored You told me you loved me You told me I was special to you Do you know, darling? If someone gets told something enough They'll start to believe it I believed I was loved by you I believed I was special to you That's embarrassing, isn't it darling? And now I'm here Unloved Ordinary Is this how you wanted me to feel? Is it, darling? I guess I'll never know For I no longer ask you anything Because of the fear that you'll say You love me And I'll fall back into your trap Of specialty and love

You said I'll be right back, So I waited. Those seconds dragged on and I couldn't take it, the more I was alone, the more I missed you. Those 3 minutes felt like an infinity, I think I'm addicted and I haven't had enough yet.

I know what drowning feels like That heavy feeling in your lungs The urge to give up and embrace, That permanent inky black To breathe in at last Just for the hope of relief Even at the price of silence Giving up would be easy now To let go of all that pain It would be worth it Just for a moment of calm Instead hope shreds me apart And I struggle against it all More painful, more pointless Letting go is too simple

I didn't want you and you didn't want me but life had other plans I decided it was wrong even as it felt so right I didn't want this yet here I am wishing it was where you were I can't stop thinking of the smell of your skin And I hate myself for giving in a perfect imperfection that sucks me in , again and again and there's nothing I can do.

frack my bones inject my marrow with chemical-laced H2O rupture my joints infect my blood stream with methane lace my veins with concrete and steel just so you can steal my stomach lining crack open my skull just so you can steal all of my racing thoughts drip acid down my spinal chord and maybe spinal tap your way into my pelvic bone close your fist around my lungs and maybe steal my last breaths from my open mouth unravel my dna to make a ladder of your own uncoil my intestines to spread them out to measure zap my nerve endings just to see me twitch rub down my bare body in alcohol just to watch my skin sizzle ruin everything good and